To The Glorious Dead

I'm well known for my relatively practical and cold approach towards Death... as to how I see as an end that gives everything else meaning... And for my 100th post to be of a matter which concerns Death...

I find amusing, how the living can find glory and dignity in death... Those who died in battle are considered to be lucky, seeing as how they have died an honorable Death... We know hear of the dying to request to be allowed to die with some dignity...

There is no dignity in death... what happens after that is a matter of faith... but one thing is for certain... your physical shell rots, eaten away, slowly you disintegrate... there is no honor in death... there is no dignity... but one can indeed live with honor and dignity...

To those who died in the Bukit Antarabangsa Landslide, 12/6/2008.

To The Glorious Dead

I'm Happy That You're Happy

At times the greatest lie one can ever tell another

One in a long list life's cliches

A vain attempt at making one feel better about themselves.

You'd feel all rotten inside, and yet you still put up a front, you smile, and you say "I'm happy that you're happy" I applaud you for it takes guts to not just spill it all out and tell that particular someone how you REALLY feel.

Bugger...

On he bright side... I'm writing again...

Rule no. 5: Life's a game, play it like you've got nothing to lose

Malay supremacy...

Being a Johanian all my life... the question of its importance was never much a concern to me... then... The government decided that it was best they sent me to UiTM instead of pursuing law in IIUM (come to think of it... I have had y fair share of public statements which make me liable for arrest under ISA... may be this is their way of getting to me... put me in an all bumiputera establishment) That was when i was introduced to the entire concept of “Malay Supremacy” and that how we are superior in terms of our rights... Article 154 became a study of interest for me.

Constitutionally speaking “Malay Supremacy” is not a “Right” it is instead a privilege, meaning it is subject to constitutional changes...

The concept of Malay Supremacy came up as a form of give and take... simply put, the malays will allow the immigrants at that time citizenship, in return they will recognize these special rights in which are given to the Malays. The state of inequality in which these rights promoted was to create a state of equality... a form of positive discrimination...

In which I believe will be and should be slowly taken away... To wait till equality is achieved and only then dissolve this rights is unimaginable... It is a truism in which there will always be approximate equality... there will always be a certain level of poverty...

For The record... Its Bumipuetra Rights... NOT Malay Rights

Of SPM

In light of recent happenings... Lets have a one way discussion on the concept of being free...

I do this in respect of the end of high-school for many... Some of which I honestly care about....

The thought of going to school... and SPM being the dreaded part of it all... the single examination that determines what happens for you in life.... that  partly decides how what life has for you from that point forth...

Everyone looks forward to the end of that last paper in an examination schedule that spans for at least a months time... Eagerly awaiting the coming of that last paper... you plot and devise plans on what and how to proceed directly after that single point in the space-time continuum... with the  belief that salvation comes directly after that last paper...

On a personal account... what happened to me directly after SPM was that Marvin, Hasan and I decided to take the train to KLCC... we all went to Starbucks... had a venti frapucinno  each... the only thing we could say to each other was... Now What? God knows what Hasan did prior to completing SPM... but Marin and I got involved with The Illusion and after that I proceeded to working in an Apple Store in Pavilion, Bukit Bintang, and then I was shipped out for NS.

Fact of the matter is SPM is the only thing - Malaysia having an exam-oriented education system - that gave your high-school life substantial purpose... it was the sole reason that drove you to the the things you do... be it directly or indirectly... mainly because of the magnitude in which it carried for many... we all want to climd the societal ladder which dictates our lives...

So when you take SPM away... the single aspect in which gave 5 years of your life reason and meaning... a silly examination which you put your best foot forward for, that silly examination in which you placed a goal... this goal is what we consider to be a short-term goal in within a bigger plan... a mechanism to which we must go through in order to further ourselves... and once you take this away... once you walk past that point...

A feeling of emptiness subsides within yourself...

Now what?

Is this what you’ve been waiting for?

Rule No. 4 :  Dress well, dine fine, live moderately

Of Employment and Not Doing Aything

I am employed...

Once more...

Yes  I do indeed have a phobia of not being able to do anything... I must do something.... even f i were to stay at home... I’d either be on WoW raiding, or trying to long on to WoW seeing as how the queue borders on insanity.... There was this once, I actualy had to wait for a whole hour to log on... Currently in conflict... should I continue to level my mage or do I instead opt to run about Azeroth with the Death Knight which renders everyone else F.U.B.A.R.

Back to being at work... One more employed at EpiCentre Pavilion, so lemme know if anyone needs any goods from Apple... Gimme a ring... I’m off now... gotta start busying myself with attempting to look busy... See you soon

Rule No. 3 : Never go anywhere without a pen

Of Cons

The art of lying… finest of em all…

A sharp tongue, absolute confidence, a certain amount of suave and swagger

Simple traits which will take you a good distance provided you know how to best utilize them… The problem about cons is that, you can’t con a conman…

Was walking thru the streets of KL, and they have these silly prank show recordings… thing bout us is that we’re always looking at the angles… taking notice of our surroundings more than the average person… basically I noticed the “trick” and ruined it for em… why? Because I can… poor gal… deeerved it I suppose… having the time of her life at the expense of other people… but then again… isn’t that exactly what I do?

Rule No. 2: Play the game, know it, and learn how to beat it

Semper Fi

Temptations

In life, there is always the temptation to do the things that you’re not supposed to. The flaw of humanity; it is fundamental in your psychological makeup to go against the music, defiance. The question is, should we succumb? Do we live by the rules which govern modern society or do we live by rules of our own?

I personally have little to no regard to societal rules, called me an anarchist if you want, but there are just some things I will not acknowledge. I live by my own set of rules, principles. The question is for how long one can remain as such. Immovable, incorruptible. On a cheesy aspect, the concept is simple, you either die a hero – holding on to what you believe in – or you live long enough to see yourself become the villain. Up till today, immovable and incorruptible is the way life is lead. Peer pressure becomes nothing more than a concept, a misconstrued belief. I’ve crossed over to the dark side and waltzed my way back.

Rule No. 1: Never apologize, simply acknowledge your mistakes.

Of recent occurrences

Been off to UiTM Shah Alam for the Vice-Chancellor’s Cup debate, can’t say the team did so well, on a more personal level, I came off with a total of 368 speaker points, which places me at 16 from a list of over a hundred debaters, not bad for a first time. But performance definitely did not meet the expected outcome.

Will definitely miss Alex Hakim, Sarah Yasmin, and Syam…

Looking forward to the coming semester; legal studies and debate.

Incorruptible and Immovable…